Archive | August, 2011

While I’m waiting…

30 Aug

If you have kept up with this blog for any amount of time, then you know that we are in a season of waiting to find what the next step in ministry will be for our family.  It has been a tough summer for us to go through, but it has been a great summer at the same time.  I hope that makes sense.  While it stinks to be unemployed and not having a permanent church home to serve in, it has also been an incredible growing experience for both me (He-wood) personally and our family as a whole.  I have come to a better understanding of who God is and how He provides for His children.  I have come to a better understanding of the fact that I do not have to know what the next step is ahead of time, because God already knows what that step is.  And ultimately He has my good in mind.  Now I also understand that my understanding of what “good” means is not necessarily the same as God’s understanding of what “good” means.  To say it another way, humanly speaking, good usually means that I am comfortable, happy, and independent, but in God’s economy good means that I am in a position that I can bring Him the most glory by being completely dependent on Him.  Needless to say, it has been an incredible summer.

This morning I have been greatly encouraged by both a psalm and by the words of Charles Spurgeon.  Psalm 27 is a great psalm of King David.  It begins with that great verse, “The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?”  Such great words of encouragement.  But the psalm ends with a great promise and mindset that I plan on adopting in my own life.  Verses 13-14 read, “I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let you heart take courage; wait for the LORD!”  WOW!! What encouraging words especially when you consider that most scholars believe this psalm was written during the rebellion of David’s son Absalom.  I was greatly encouraged by these words this morning.

I also read through Spurgeon’s Morning by Morning as a part of my devotion time in the mornings.  Today was about waiting as well.  I can totally identify with his words.  Spurgeon writes, “There are hours of perplexity when the most willing spirit, anxiously desiring to serve the Lord, does not know what role to play.”  How true have these words been for me over the past couple of months?  I have such an incredibly strong desire to serve and be in a place where I can invest in the lives of people, but, as of yet, God has not revealed the place where I should do that.  It is somewhat frustrating at times.  However, I have resolved myself to a position that I had not phrased as Spurgeon did, but from now on I will say it this way. “Believe that if He keeps you waiting even until midnight, He will still come at the right time; the vision will come and not delay.” (I love his nod to the book of Habakkuk!)  I will wait “in prayer…with simplicity of soul…in faith…and in quiet patience.”

I know that God is good and that I am an object of grace for Him as one of His children.  And as the song says, “While I’m waiting, I will worship.”

I will dance I will sing to be mad for my King

18 Aug

While in the middle of an impromptu dance party this afternoon, I suddenly came to a realization.  My kids have a better understanding of what it means to become undignified in worship than I do.  We were listening the Hillsong Kids Ultimate Collection album as we danced around.  Wee-wood 1 knows the words to the songs and is starting to understand what they mean.  She was talking about how much she loved singing songs to Jesus as she jumped up and down and spun around.  When she said that it dawned on me that she was totally free in her 4 year old type of worship and not at all worried about what anyone else said or thought.  I immediately thought of David in 2 Samuel 6.  Verses 14 – 16 read this way:

“And David danced before the LORD with all his might.  And David was wearing a linen ephod.  So David and all the house of Israel brought up the ark of the LORD with shouting and with the sound of the horn.  As the ark of the LORD came into the city of David, Michal the daughter of Saul looked out of the window and saw King David leaping and dancing before the LORD, and she despised him in her heart.”

Then skipping down to verses 20-22:

“And David returned to bless his household.  But Michal the daughter of Saul came out to meet David and said, “How the king of Israel honored himself today, uncovering himself today before the eyes of his servants’ female servants, as one of the vulgar fellows shamelessly uncovers himself!”  And David said to Michal, “It was before the LORD, who chose me above your father and above all his house, to appoint me as prince over Israel, the people of the LORD – and I will make merry before the LORD.  I will make myself yet more contemptible than this, and I will be abased in your eyes.  But by the female servants of whom you have spoken, by them I shall be held in honor.”

David did not have a care in the world as he worshiped His Father in heaven.  He worshiped as the Lord led him to worship.  Wee-wood 1 worshiped as God led her to worship in dancing and singing songs.  I was convicted when I thought about how concerned I am at times about what other people think about the way that I worship.  I need to be concerned with one individual and one individual alone.  It is worship TO God.  My only concern is pleasing Him and bringing a smile to His face with my worship as I pour out my heart back to Him.

How about you?  What is the object and concern of your worship?

I find my place In serving You

14 Aug

Thanks to the Vineyard song for expressing my thoughts today in song…yeah I probably have never heard the song but I did my typical google and fell on them.

As I was sitting in church today I reflected that this is the first time during our marriage that He-wood and I haven’t been actively serving somewhere. It’s so weird to not have food to take to a sunday school class or small group (I’ve mentioned before I LOVE cooking right?!)…so weird to not get up so early and go to church to prepare to lead in worship (although, praise God He-wood did today, it was most enjoyable). We don’t have any meetings to go to you know the kind where sometimes you don’t really want to attend but do anyways. So weird to not get prayer request emails or newsletters or requests to bring meals to someone going through a difficult time. So weird to not get lunch invites after church..although it’s been good since our budget is tight.

That all being said….BRING ON THOSE THINGS AGAIN!!!!!!! I am so ready to pour ourselves into a church. I’m so ready for He-wood to go to work and for him to use his talents. I’m so ready to have meetings that frustrate, food to cook, and the occasional nursery work to fill in when someone is absent. I’m ready to take on some duties to help grow a church or relieve some stress from someone else.

It’s true we don’t know what we’ve got until its gone, but we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives. I don’t know who said that but it feels so true for me right now. I want normal back…I want the Wee-woods to not have to pray for their daddy to get a new job…I love that they pray for it but it’s still tough.

Our God Reigns

12 Aug

Read the words of Psalm 97 today:

“The Lord reigns, let the earth rejoice; let the many coastlands be glad!  Clouds and thick darkness are all around him; righteousness and justice are the foundation of his throne. Fire goes before him and burns up his adversaries all around.  His lightnings light up the world; the earth sees and trembles.  The mountains melt like wax before the LORD, before the Lord of all the earth.  The heavens proclaim his righteousness, and all the peoples see his glory.  All worshipers of images are put to shame, who make their boasts worthless idols; worship him all you gods!  Zion hears and is glad, and the daughters of Judah rejoice, because of your judgments, O LORD.  For you , O LORD, are most high over all the earth; you are exalted far above all gods.  O you who love the LORD, hate evil! He preserves the lives of his saints; he delivers them from the hand of the wicked.  Light is sown for the righteous, and joy for the upright in heart.  Rejoice in the LORD, O you righteous, and give thanks to his holy name!”

What incredibly encouraging words.  We love and serve an amazingly powerful God!  This God who has mountains melt before him and who lights up the sky with lightning is the same God who loves us so much that He gave up His Son for us to die for our sins on the cross.  “He loves us, oh how He loves us!”  I think that it is important at times to be reminded of how great our God is.  It is so easy to get caught up in our circumstances and lose sight of the grand scale of the God that we follow.  Therefore, at least for me, it is important to be reminded of how great our God is every once in a while.  Be encouraged today.

Memories all alone in the moonlight

8 Aug

Brought a little “Cats” musical tonight for you. We’ve been feverishly preparing for our home visit so in honor of today being Monday take a walk down memory lane. Each Wee-wood has a three picture picture frame in our hall. It’s progressive photos as they grow. I LOVE them. The casual observer wouldn’t notice that Wee-wood 1’s hands are cupped at her chest in the 2nd picture because it’s so her personality…but I do! You also might not notice how Wee-wood 2 is perched forward in one because she wanted my string of pearls I was coaxing her with. Then He-wood mentioned we need a new frame for Wee-wood 3. That’s exciting! I’m trying so hard to stay excited but during this time in our life it’s very difficult. We are about to be in the thick of the waiting for the birthmother to choose us and there isn’t much we can do but pray. Our book is made, as of thursday our home study can be written, and well the nursery isn’t getting decorated much. Just a blue sheet and some wall art. I will attempt to make curtain if my machine doesn’t act up. Add waiting for our son to He-wood’s unemployment and well it makes me way too emotional and nervous. It’s frustrating that job postings for him seem to be all part-time. I’m cool with part-time but benefits are the problem since I can’t get them through my job.

This waiting will pay off for both the adoption and a new job/place of ministry. I’m just so ready to get invested somewhere I can’t stand it. The Wee-woods ask what church we are going to every Sunday…that’s rough!

I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living!
14 Wait for the Lord;
be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the Lord!   Psalm 27: 13-14

I’m seeking to be strong, take courage, and continue to make and recall memories to make me smile.

Taste and see

6 Aug

So I just finished reading Tim Keller’s The Prodigal God, and I absolutely loved it.  Great book Mr. Keller!!  I wanted to discuss a thought from the final chapter of the book that I love.

On page 120/121 he writes, “Salvation is not only objective and legal but also subjective and experiential.”  I find that I think about my life, there are times when I fall into the camp of looking at salvation as only a legal exchange.  I often view it as simply the transaction of Jesus righteousness for my shame and sin.  However, I understand that salvation is so much more than that.  I have resolved to challenge myself to begin experiencing Jesus in a more subjective way.  there is so much more to salvation than just the transaction.  I am drawn to verses like Psalm 34:8 which says, “O, taste and see that the Lord is good!”  I crave to be able to taste and see how good the Lord is.  I want my understanding of salvation to be one of experiencing who the Lord is and how costly the grace I have been shown truly is.

That’s all my musings for this evening.  Looking forward to worshiping with fellow believers in the morning.

I wanna be in the light…

4 Aug

Hear these great and encouraging words from Charles Spurgeon.

“The joy of the saints in heaven is comprised in this: Jesus chose us, loved us, bought us, cleansed us, robed us, kept us, glorified us…Nothing of beauty is left when the light is gone.  Without light no radiance flashes from the sapphire, no peaceful ray proceeds from the pearl; and so all beauty of the saints above comes from Jesus…In heaven our knowledge will be perfect, but the Lord Jesus Himself will be the foundation of it…Whatever there may be of transcendent splendor, Jesus will be the center and soul of it all.”

What awesome and encouraging words from an amazing man of God!  After reading those words yesterday morning, I found my thoughts clouded by them for the rest of the day.  I am fascinated by the thought of living in the presence of a living Savior whose own glory is so radiant and bright that there is no need of a sun or moon.  In Revelation 21:22-25 John writes, “And I saw no temple in the city, for its temple is the Lord God the Almighty and the Lamb.  And the city has no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and its lamp is the Lamb.  By its light will the nations walk, and the kings of the earth will bring their glory into it, and its gates will never be shut by day – and there will be no night there.”  I simply cannot wait to get to that point in eternity.  How amazing will it be to experience that kind of intimacy with our Savior?

Let the imagery of Revelation 21 captivate your mind and thoughts today.  If you are a Christian, let it encourage and uplift you; excite and enthuse you.  If you are not yet a believer, let it intrigue and challenge you; move and salvationcompel you.