Archive | November, 2011

I’m so thankful that I’m incapable Of doing any good on my own

23 Nov

Okay so I’ve not blogged in a WHILE but in honor of thanksgiving I will.

Trying to be thankful during tough times may be easier than being thankful during “easy” times. We see so much to be thankful for. This year has been very rough. He-wood has often said he has been thankful during this time. I have too but probably for much different reasons.

Provision for us financially has probably been my favorite to see during this time. It hasn’t been easy and thankfully we had a little bit of savings to help us through too. I think it’s important that God has always laid it on my heart to have money in savings for a rainy day and not that we should depend on it as a crutch but it’s fiscally responsible. Wonderfully we haven’t had to touch it much since I’m going to need it to get a crown and not the kind a king wears (arg dentists).

-I’m thankful for all the churches who allowed my husband to come play for their worship service and helped to pay our bills

-I’m thankful for being allowed to visit and sit under different pastors, worship leaders, experience different children’s departments; something a full-time ministry family doesn’t get to do much

-I’m thankful for those who have bought us dinner or sent us gift cards to help us get by or invited us to dinner at their house

-I’m thankful for those friends we’ve made who allow me to vent my frustration and befriend my children to make them feel welcome and loved at church

-I’m thankful for the time we got to spend as a family these last several months

-I’m thankful for the prayers that Wee-wood 1 would pray for daddy to find a new job. Breaks my heart she has to endure this but it’s a great lesson on bringing everything to God.

-I’m thankful for my job that allowed me to pick up more classes at the last minute so we could stay afloat.

-I’m thankful for place to stay saturday nights before church-it’s incredibly more than the floor or couch in a strangers basement or living room that I was praying we could have to avoid a long drive Sunday morning.

-I’m thankful for a summer visit to my mom’s that wouldn’t have happened without this situation

-I’m thankful for my grandma giving me Kohl’s cash and getting $10 off a $10 purchase at JCP and other retailers to help us afford clothes and to satisfy a shopping desire when our budget didn’t really have room for one

-I’m thankful for family members who bought shoes and clothes for the Wee-woods so they would always look super cute!

-I’m thankful for a wonderful anniversary dinner prepared by He-wood…some of the best italian food he’s made!

-I’m thankful for the place I sort produce that helps us afford healthy fruits and veggies-oh how I will miss them!

-I’m thankful that our adoption home study is complete and we are waiting on a birthmother to choose us!

-I’m thankful for He-wood bringing Chick-Fil-A home from work and I’m thrilled he got the job in the first place!

Okay I’m stopping but we have so much to be grateful for and if I don’t express it then I can’t truly say I’m being thankful. I’m so thankful that we’ve survived this season of life thus far. It scares me to death but I’m proud to say we have done it. I’ve always been so happy to pay the bills but now it almost brings me to tears.

-I’m also thankful for the way God brought us to our current church…it’s a great story and I guess I should make He-wood explain it when he has time.

And it caught me by surprise…

22 Nov

So as you possibly know She-wood and I are in the process of adopting a child right now. We are at the point where we are simply waiting for the call. It is so stressful to wait. Everyone knows how hard it is to wait for something that you want so badly. It has stretched me to rely on Jesus to sustain me through the waiting. However, I know that it is going to happen on God’s timetable.

That being said, things took a great turn last night. We got a call from our social worker last night saying that there is a birthmother who fits into our criteria that is due just after the first of the year that she wants to show our profile to. It is incredibly exciting to think of the possibility of having a child in as little as five or six weeks! I can’t even begin to express all of the emotions and thoughts that are cycling through my mind even now over 12 hours later. I am in one moment elated, scared, hopeful, cautious, encouraged and prayerful.

I know that this does not definitively mean that this will be the child God has for us, but it most definitely took us by surprise. We covet your prayers as we move forward and desire that you covenant to support us in prayer. We will also accept financial support as we seek how God will lead us to financially do what He has called us to do. Thanks for reading our blog also.

Serve justice, love mercy, walk humbly with your God

16 Nov

She-wood and I went to see the movie Courageous last night, and can I just say, “Wow!” I know that we are a little late on seeing it, but better late than never, right? I was so moved by it that I had to blog about. I won’t give anything away if you haven’t seen it, but I would like to share how I plan to change a couple if things.

There is a point in the movie where one of the characters tells the main character that he thinks that he’s been a good enough father. The main character responds, “That’s the problem. I don’t want to be a good enough father. I want to be the father that God has called me to be!” When he said that line, I felt like someone had punched me in the chest. I couldn’t breathe. There are many times where I have only been a “good enough” father. I don’t want to be remembered as a father who just did enough to get by. I want to be remembered as a great father who loved his kids and their mother well. I want to be remembered as a father who led his kids to Jesus and led his family with godly principles. I want to be a father who shows his girls how a young man should treat her with respect and honor while they are dating. I want to be a father who calls out the man in my sons.

I know that the only way I can do this is with God’s power working in and through me. I will also need the help of my wonderful wife. I will also need other Christian fathers to partner alongside me to help keep me accountable. However, I believe that with God’s help and direction I can leave a legacy of Christian leadership for my children to pass on to their families as well.

I’m so glad that this movie was made to bring the issue of Christian fatherhood to the forefront.

An everlasting love…

14 Nov

I’m so thankful for my family. I love getting to spend time with them the way I do. God is so good to let me enjoy getting to raise two little files and a little boy soon. I know I have said it before, but I really do love my family. God has blessed me with such an amazing and love wife to support and encourage me. I truly believe that He led me to a Proverbs 31 woman. I am blessed beyond measure. The love I have for her is truly an everlasting love. I guess I just needed to say that today.

What are you thankful for?

I don’t know where I’m going but I do know who I’ll be. These memories and names like leaves all hang on us, the Family Tree.

8 Nov

I was listening to this song earlier today.  I highly recommend that you get Dave Barnes Christmas album if you don’t have it.  It is one of the greatest Christmas albums I have found in quite some time, but I digress.  I love this song in particular.  It is called “Family Tree.”  The last verse goes like this, “There are voices now where silence was The subtle signs of growing up Where one is born, another leaves Branches on the family tree.”  I could not help but think of the incredible heritage that I and my family has.  I thought of my dad’s parents.  They are both with Jesus now, but I remember so fondly spending time with them.  They were simple people, but they left such an amazing wake in the name of Jesus behind them.  I am so thankful for my MeeMaw and PawPaw.  I am thankful for the time that I did get to spend with them and for the example of godliness that they set.  I think also of my mom’s parents.  They are both still living, and I am thankful that I get to experience that as well.  They love me and my siblings so much.  It has been amazing to get to experience them being great-grandparents to the Wee-woods as well.  It was sweet Friday night to see Wee-wood 1 Snuggled up next to my granddaddy on the couch just doing nothing. (I am also thankful that I was able to catch it on camera.)

I am thankful for my parents.  I am who I am today because of them and their parenting.  I know that saying is totally cliche, but it really is the truth.  I am thankful for the values they instilled in me and I am thankful for the love they have and still show me.  I am thankful that they took me to church when I was young, and I am thankful that they made it a priority for us to learn about Jesus.  I am thankful that they love my children so much and that my children have the opportunity to know them.

I am thankful that I am making my own branches on the family tree now.  I am so blessed by God to have children to pour my life into.  I am grateful that God has deemed me worthy of guiding lives toward Him.  I love my children and I cannot wait to see where the family tree goes with them.

I say all of these things in order to get to the point that I can truly say the lyrics from this song, “I don’t know where I’m going, but I do know who I’ll be.”  I have know idea where God will lead my life from here, but I know who I will be when I get there.  God has used my family tree to shape me into who I am so that I will be prepared for whatever God leads me to do.  I am grateful for God’s sovereignty in placing my life in the family tree that He did.  As we are moving into the holiday season, I plan to blog about things I am thankful for.  I ask that you the reader comment on what you are thankful for as well.  I look forward to hearing back from you.