He-wood and I are avid readers but sadly ever since wee-wood 3 we’ve become terrible bloggers. We’ve both decided to try and get back into it. So today I wanted to tell you of my latest read: The Fringe Hours by Jessica Turner. As mothers we often neglect ourselves and her book encourages us to do better at this. Something I rarely do is paint my fingernails-mostly because in 2.7seconds they’re already chipping. So y’all awesome ladies need to tell me your secret nail polish tricks.
Anyhow, besides reading, and pampering myself-ie a haircut, I did a bit of quilting. Something I LOVE. My mom has never gotten a quilt of mine but i have gotten many and ahem stolen one…ok ok she insisted I take it but I think my youngest sister is plotting its safe rescue! So I saw fit that she have a new quilt for her bed, in fact its the largest quilt I’ve done to date! HUGE I tell you! I used many fringe hours or days to get this done in record breaking time.
I have to admit I am very blessed with a husband that allows me time and money to pursue my passions. So husbands out there take notice, grab your wife the book and take the kids so she can care for herself a bit.
I think my biggest take away from the book is to ask for help! I am terrible about asking for help to get things done, like going to the doctor alone, haircut without holding a baby, or sewing, or being in Bible study. I was also reminded that all stages in life can be crazy busy and women impose stupid standards on themselves and could possibly use our help. So I’m going to try and ask if I can help others and I’m going to ask for help more often.
It has always been a challenge to teach our kids to wait patiently. Sometimes they can be the most impatient children I’ve ever seen and certainly the most whiney! So when one of our favorite authors came out with a book about waiting I knew we needed to purchase it. Mo Willems wrote a book called “Waiting is Not Easy”. In it Piggy has a surprise for Gerald, the elephant. Gerald initially is very patient but just a few pages in he’s very impatient and begins to groan loud groans! Eventually it gets dark and he’s like we’ve waited all day-and wants to know the surprise. Piggy finally says look up there is your surprise. The beautiful night sky was above them. They both were awestruck at the beautiful night sky!
It got me thinking, How often are we Gerald the elephant with Piggy,a loving God. We begin by being patient but quickly lose sight of the beautiful night sky…the prize! In our life we’ve been through the waiting phase of unemployment. It was difficult last time around too. We were commuting 80 miles one way begging for the church to vote him in or let us move on. When we adopted our son we waited for nearly a year-getting impatient every day. Many people questioned if we were continuing, stopped asking, and there were days that shamefully I forgot we were in the process. This time of waiting is getting to us again. Okay to be honest it was getting to us a long time ago. It’s been a year that He-wood has officially known about the unemployment season but he’s been looking for a place in ministry for about 18 months. It’s been a long season of waiting. Today I remind myself that much like Gerald waiting for his surprise I too can keep waiting. I must remember that there will be a day when this waiting is over. So until then may I remember to look up and enjoy the goodness of God’s creation.
So last night I took our five-year-old on a date. I like to do that periodically. I think it’s important that I spend time with each of my children individually from time to time. The thing that struck me about the evening was that our five-year-old was overjoyed just to have time alone with me. I love our five-year-old just like I love all four of our kids. She is such a joy to be around. She is the funniest kid I have ever met. She can bring humor into any situation just about. The fact is I spent the evening with her and as I watched her face and as I talk to her and as I listen to her I noticed that she just loved being with me. She was soaking up every second of being with dad. And I couldn’t help but think of my relationship with my heavenly Father.
How often have I looked at time with the Father as something that is a chore? I should never consider it to be a chore. I should be overjoyed just to get to spend time with my Father. I’ve been struggling over the past couple weeks to get up early enough to spend time with my heavenly Father. I don’t talk about it as if it’s some sort of thing that will earn me more salvation. I talk about it as it’s a thing that I want to do but I can’t seem to do it. I now understand what Paul was talking about.
The fact is I know that just as much as I am overjoyed when I spend time with the Father, He revels in it as well. I just want to make him smile.
I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, he who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD is your keeper; the LORD is your shade on your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The LORD will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.
I give you this Psalm today. I’ll be totally honest with you this morning; there are days when I struggle to be joyful in my current situation. I know that it is satan trying to discourage me and make me doubt God’s calling on my life. It is during those times that I cling to Psalm 121. I mean just think about what it says for a minute.
Your help comes from God. He is the maker of all things. He will not let you be moved. He never sleeps. Think about that. There is never a moment when God is not attentive to what is happening in the universe. He is our comforter and our relief. While that may not mean that your life will be easy; you can still find rest in Him. God sustains you. He knows everything about you and watches your every step. He keeps you going through it all always and forever.
What an amazing reminder this morning! I know that I have to sometimes be reminded that God is in control and has a plan for my life at all times. This is especially important on days like today when the enemy tries to beat me down. God is in control and He is where my help comes from.
I wonder how many of us can truly say this. How often do we come to God with our requests but never stop to listen to what He has to say to us? I know I am guilty of it. I am in such a hurry with the trivial things of life that I don’t make time to sit and listen to what the Lord has to say to me. I am ashamed to admit that, but there is also a sense of freedom in that admission.
I want more and more of God. I want to hang on His every word. I want to sit and simply listen to Him, and I want to let Him speak life into me. I know that I can’t continue without Him doing so. I am committing to seeking after God more earnestly in times of prayer. I don’t mean simply praying more. I mean praying more intentionally, and carving out time to sit and listen. Why are we so afraid of silence as a culture? (That’s a topic for another post) I want to be cognizant of making sure that I am using the time I have wisely. And what more wise use of my time than to sit and let the Lord speak over me?
What is keeping you from spending time with the Lord and hanging on His every word? Is it the television? Is it some form of social media? Whatever it may be, it’s not more important than talking with the Creator of the universe. Take time to listen to Him today.
There are days that life is just harder than it is on other days. We all can agree that sometimes life is just hard. There are times when people are going to let you now. There are times when things are not going to go your way.there will be days when nothing seems to go wrong. There will be seasons in life when you don’t know where to go next.those times are hard. It’s during those times that we have to turn to Jesus. We on our own as humans simply are not strong enough to handle everything that life throws at us each and every day. Yes we are resilient. Yes we can achieve great things. But when it comes down to the brass tacks of life when we are in the situations that are difficult and tough to get through we can’t do it on our own. It’s during those times that we have to find our identity in Christ.
For the past few weeks I have found myself in one of those tough situation. It’s hard to wait on the Lord. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he has called me into vocational ministry for him. However, right now God has me in a season of waiting for him to show me where that place of ministry is. I have come to the realization that I’m not strong enough to be everything that I’m supposed to be for the Lord. The only way that I can do this the only way that I can wait on the Lord is for him to do it through me. Christ in me the hope of glory is the only way that I can wait on the Lord. does that make it easy? Absolutely not. It’s hard to wait on the Lord. However, I know that God has promised me that he will use me for his glory in the kingdom. I know that he has a place in ministry for me. I just have to wait for him to show me that, and the only way that I can wait on him for that is for him to do it through me.
So what is the tough situation that you’re in today? What is it that God is waiting to show you? How are you responding? have you come to the realization that you’re not strong enough to be everything you’re supposed to be in Christ? Are you willing to let Christ do it in you?
She-wood here after a LONG hiatus. I don’t know if this will be regular but I can try.
January 2014 I took out a lovely robins egg blue notebook and wrote a list. The top says Dreams…simple right?! It was I wrote things like have an awesome kitchen and entertain friends regularly. Then I wrote some crazy things like write a book and have a natural childbirth. Crazy right?! I mean I don’t regularly write, don’t have a platform, and don’t really know what the book would be about but I wrote it down anyways. Then I wrote down natural childbirth. Honestly, this has always been a dream but due to inductions and hemorrhaging has never happened. I always end up with that guilty feeling of feeling less than because I got the epidural. Which is dumb-I know that! What’s even dumber is to write down that “dream” when you are talking about adopting again…thats epidural free so it counts right?! JK then something happened…we call her Wee-wood 4. She was supposed to be induced on that morning in December but instead contractions started on their own…while waiting at the starbucks drive thru. I joked if they didn’t hurry she’d be born there! They started every 2 mins…after a few hours i had dilated just 1cm from the 5cm that i was the day prior. Things were painful and i always panic about how much it would hurt as they try to stop my bleeding after the baby is born so I consented to an epidural. So while trying to get that epidural I went from 6cm to her being there in less than 20mins. That’s how I my natural childbirth dream came true. Im stuck with a pain in my back from the epidural that came late and a beautiful baby as a reminder of that answered dream.
While I don’t know how many more of those dreams will be answered I’m praying that I’ll forever enjoy the memories of God’s faithfulness to allow us to dream and have them answered.